Ok, so it's been a few months now, obviously BLOGGING isn't one of my strong priorities; neither is TWITTER, nor Facebook.
Honestly I've reached a point where nothing seems of particular importance. Virtually every aspect of life, every role I play seems at a stagnant standstill.
I'm doing better in some ways, not so good in others;
1) Life at work seems much better - less stress and not the crazy commute that I had before. Coming home is easier; a LOT less traffic, so I'm not as ANGRY and tense. So I'm sure my blood pressure is down.
2) Being a good husband, always takes effort and attention to details. With her back to work, we have less time to spend together than ever - so we're making it count when we do see each other.
3) Being a father, always difficult for me - worse now that we've moved to Sac. I only get to see them on the Holiday weeks that they're out of school. I miss seeing them on a more regular basis. I NEVER feel that I do enough or good enough with them, but I suppose that most dads feel that way?...
4) The computer-geek side of me is stuck in the rut of having upgraded to the fullest extent possible (maxed) - I'm bored and lacking the disposable income for an entire new system.
5) The photographer-geek side of me is stuck in the same rut (sort-of) - MOSTLY weather related boredom, being so dreary. Lacking the disposable income to go places now, let alone upgrade any equipment.
6) The spiritual side of me is really the only one that's doing well, (it's what really matters anyhow!) which is getting to all the meetings and getting all the studying in. So, yeah, I feel good spiritually.
Mostly I'm just bored, almost all the time. Is that mid-life thing catching up to me?
I had no idea how busy I was in the East Bay. Now in a place more comfortable and laid-back, it still seems like there's not enough time in the day, but at the same time it's being filled with other things. I study more, I play Wii, I'm able to watch things I've long-forgotten about on the DVR, I really enjoy seeing our Grandson on a semi-regular basis.
I think I've drawn the conclusion that the main difference is the lack of disposable income, I can't travel or shop as much! :)
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